karma bones

karma-bones

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display the wild wolf
as she struggles on her feet
as she bleeds

as she weeps
for lover moon
who is hidden
from her reach

who is covered
by ceiling
who is pale
with grief

who needs the land
to breathe

who never leaves
never free

a futile be goes then comes

a-futile-be-goes-then-comes

finish line breath of time beginning of time rhyme

just enough filled enough filed thoroughly

choose your image personality core start end brain box yourself in

however you choose religion ego death astrology laws notes beauty plastic

glass box close off parts of my brain no time for those silly doubts

in this boxed world i created glass box see out but cant reach

thought think limited dead end recirculated redirection scared fear brain not big enough

pulse out blow up dooms boom gwant shroom psychedelic boom

breaks the glass melt the ice renew your thought path process sewer lines of your mind

trapped in everyday trapped in the future past values mom and dads ideals?

burn them down plant grass your grass grow yourself in your mind internally go out

doom bad evil scary wrong to build from out in external pain external lies egos sun filthy games by our self

play with our self lie cheat squeeze tempt ourselves bet motivate inspire crown ourselves each other

can we be?  can i be and exert perfectly what i be?  can i be solid resolute firm throughout?

can i be one?  or is there 2 three 4 negative nine and sixteen involved as well?

0s and 1s?  yes no on off simple no neutral just here or there YES OR NO

ballast control stablize red foam slurping logic vaccuuming experiences collaging your life

dreams beams pipe screams green fiend tabletop beans songs from my grandfather father father byond father

this life is byone your father this life is you beyond you is you fuck you beyond you and find YOU.

cut yourself off cut it out become renew fucks sake BECOME

in this moment grow future tomorrow forever away now today beautiful every way

ham scams vans bam grams in every way do i love that

positive negative plus minus oh well life goes on

singular moment than its gone 1 than 2 seconds fly us by please notice the time

as it pass by our minds caught up in what the future beaming future destiny armageddon oh no so scared!

no not scared petrified logic is petrifying research government conspiracies theories conclusions-are scary

me i you love sex fingers dancing singing screaming jumping skipping playing catching yelling enjoying life SMILING

exert that smile positive in positive out happy in smile out beam yourself know that people notice you know that the smile is important know that we want to see happiness know that happy is better than sad happy is the goal positive is all the way life is grand if we try to enjoy every second of it be becoming all the time fact is once you become- your done.  so be becoming all the time have fun-than die.

-Gwant

pistons esteem

pistons-esteem

how unreal a soul can be

how egotistical fake unloyal this animal can become

lost never found ever found? death found- always

stirs in the night stirs our hearts ignored by our minds

delay the comfort misread mis heard words for statues

what statues?  stone statues in my mind?

built up men that cease to exist at the physical line

silly updogs burrowers fake assesors of the mind

stone statues carved plate words but no feeling

cold stone cold words cold plate

warm bodies warm breath warm tears

feel the warmth from life and then cold from categories

sun shines on my soul because fright me not the sky my partner my vessel only full of life

my form animal my tone beast my stare- igniting

my love for life my love for tender broken bones our love for fuck

life is a tender bone broken mended fixed cracked repaired crushed -then amputated

decaying cut off fender bender tender bender bone hard flesh soft this broken life just enough

sorry disputed lowering heads shrinking egos display balls

loud outbursts ham yelling finger flicking glowing darts

extinguish white fluff kills your must filth strong unkind word create sore

blister bubbles pain guilt unconscious pistons banging away at our logic centers

banging our decisions

banging our fucking brains

that guilt that fucking guilt you say buried but it beats your brain daily

fucks your head

guilt fucks your head pistons banging fucking train pistons bobbing these feelings projecting these guilt ridden forbidden emotions.

to our friends family our other one.

pieces our tender bones mended together for the display the museum you display you antique relic display yourself

delayed casts broken gaskets banged up ideals morals values truths your sewer center filled with what?

what do you pump through your veins?

decisions in the past feelings emotions tucked away pumping slowly through veins

breeding quietly in your brains littering your life -with pain.

-Gwant

sands

cracks no mend needed fill in with lust

dust crust filthy must end this crazed fluff

hollowed tubes balls of wire intrepid lines in my mind

moths butterflies deer skin lies never in my eyes

the best actors lie through their teeth hearts cut out heads exalted

best in class good looking sass tiger meow what is to fault

the head is to fault the heart the gut the hands and feet is to be exalted

the lies are to be buried our heads to be buried our minds future past buried in the sand

our wiggley feet hands our up down bellies shown

but cower my smile for fear that something more might be shown

i cower below in the depths of my gut down gravity pulling my smile down

to a frown

in the sand

where no one can see or feel but me- and the sand.

-Gwant

3 am

smoke signals
on your doorstep
in the night
freezing cold
burns
into your soul
as you
stomp out the light
of another
sickness
death inhaled
i will survive
to kill myself
again
another night
but i have seen
the hollow eyes
exeunt of life
a mother
drowning
in stained
cotton sheets
still i cry
at 3 am
under blankets
my only
comforters
fighting off the blankness
in the stares
that were so many
slaughted silently
still i wait
by the grove
where my father
was murdered
by reality
pondering the time
it would take
for my spirit
to wander
like the mother
and the father
i am the beast
that haunts
in the doorways
by the bedsides
in the kitchens
drowning
with the memories
of one hundred
fires
burning out
slowly
and still i wait
always

spitfire

spit it out

dont swallow
your lines
when they come

have fun

fucking yourself

in the face

when you make

a mistake

taste your words

turn them over

bend them backwards

flip them upside down

--but take your time

before you release

don't let them

come too soon

even when you think

you are through

murdering silent beast

murdering-silent-beast

crowded streets empty hearts beating brain drum

high knights roam eyes match in unison troops assemble

perfect lines perfection marching with eyes down frown

duty unforgiven murder bomb kill for duty

bare your fangs for duty

animal cannibal barking dogs withheld by steel barriers

steel barrier duty?

keep the dogs at bay troops focus stays

steel mean cold uniform steel blockading our barking dogs

bark dog bark for me i need the motivation

a wolf creature flies over the mean steel and bounces into the street filled with troops

grizzly sizzly biting legs thighs arms guns bayonets aimed at this animal furious rage trapped animal

boom boom stab blood runs my wolf died

my love my motivation my inspiration my teacher

has died.

the frowning uniformed troops have killed the growling animal

now a steaming red pile of hope faith and fire the troops note the death

someday pleading with themselves to redeem the rest

beasts killing beasts silent beast killing roaring beast

-Gwant