pistons esteem

pistons-esteem

how unreal a soul can be

how egotistical fake unloyal this animal can become

lost never found ever found? death found- always

stirs in the night stirs our hearts ignored by our minds

delay the comfort misread mis heard words for statues

what statues?  stone statues in my mind?

built up men that cease to exist at the physical line

silly updogs burrowers fake assesors of the mind

stone statues carved plate words but no feeling

cold stone cold words cold plate

warm bodies warm breath warm tears

feel the warmth from life and then cold from categories

sun shines on my soul because fright me not the sky my partner my vessel only full of life

my form animal my tone beast my stare- igniting

my love for life my love for tender broken bones our love for fuck

life is a tender bone broken mended fixed cracked repaired crushed -then amputated

decaying cut off fender bender tender bender bone hard flesh soft this broken life just enough

sorry disputed lowering heads shrinking egos display balls

loud outbursts ham yelling finger flicking glowing darts

extinguish white fluff kills your must filth strong unkind word create sore

blister bubbles pain guilt unconscious pistons banging away at our logic centers

banging our decisions

banging our fucking brains

that guilt that fucking guilt you say buried but it beats your brain daily

fucks your head

guilt fucks your head pistons banging fucking train pistons bobbing these feelings projecting these guilt ridden forbidden emotions.

to our friends family our other one.

pieces our tender bones mended together for the display the museum you display you antique relic display yourself

delayed casts broken gaskets banged up ideals morals values truths your sewer center filled with what?

what do you pump through your veins?

decisions in the past feelings emotions tucked away pumping slowly through veins

breeding quietly in your brains littering your life -with pain.

-Gwant